Humility
In my experience, there are at least 2 ways to attain it.
- Have some incredible event happen that completely embarrasses me which in the end humbles me
- God gradually opens my eyes to my own sinfulness which causes me to take an honest look at myself,my sin, and my life. This leads to a greater understanding of how sinful I am which therefore makes me a little bit more humble.
I think God has been taking me through option #2 the last few weeks.
And this may sound quirky, but its the only way to describe it. I’m okay if you think I’m weird =) I have had this visual picture in my head of my heart being pulled open, and I can see the inside of it. Almost like a folded Valentine heart that you unfold to see the message written on the inside. As the Lord has revealed the “inside” of my heart to me, I have been completely humbled. Humbled by glimpses into my own selfishness, humbled by circumstances and things that I’ve done, humbled by the sin in my life. I guess God has just been giving me a good glimpse into myself.
It may sound horrible, but it has been wonderful. The more He revealed, the more I confessed and repented, the more I seemed to hear His voice. Hearing God’s voice and feeling His presence is the greatest gift. Pretty sure you all would agree with me there =)
There’s a lot more to what God has been teaching me, but that will have to be saved for another time. For now, here is how I’ve done on my goals from last week:
Goals:
- “Lost” my Paul Tripp book this week so haven’t read any more out of it =( I usually keep books I’m reading by my bed or on the end table in the family room but haven’t been able to find that book all week. Just looked up on the book shelf and found it. I guess I put it where its supposed to go last week. Tells you how often things get put away around here =) So I’ll be reading those 4 chapters this week.
- Will read chapters 4-5 out of Crazy Love this week
- Still getting up around 5:45am and still reading out of Matthew. J has started sleeping until 7am so its been good to have some extended time in the morning with Jesus.
Until next week…
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I have been following both of your blogs for awhile now. I used to attend Northwood until we moved to Mississippi. You are so honest with your spiritual journey and it has opened my eyes to form a deeper relationship with God and all of my excuses are just that excuses. Thank You!!
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Thanks Kim. It is so encouraging to hear about other women who are drawing near to God. I love that God keeps working on us! Thanks so much for sharing. I am glad to know you guys are back in Mississippi and close to family too. I know the move here was tough. I had looked for you and your fam over the past few months and wondered where you went =)